My day started out shitty…
28 Jan 2009 Leave a Comment
in Funny, Kai, doctors, excitement, ow pain, school, sick, thanks, weather
and has become a little more bearable. First I got a text from MM this morning asking me how I was doing, to which I replied that I still felt shitty and gross and not good at all. MM then asked if going to the doctors would help, and if I needed cab fare to go to the hospital she would transfer some over for me. I said that I would rather avoid the hospital if possible because I don’t want to give in just yet. Her next text message almost made me cry:
“Amy do you need me there? I could be there in a few hours. Mom”
I love my Mommy! That definitely made me feel a lot better, and a lot more safe for some reason, knowing that she would drive in crappy snowy weather just to be here to make me feel better and be with me. I don’t know what I would do without my Mom… I really don’t.
While I was texting MM I was also sending out emails to my teachers letting them know that I might miss a few classes this semester due to medical problems. A few of the teachers I had last semester so they kind of know what’s going on with me and my issues, but one of my teachers was really nice and sent me an email that, along with MM’s texts, made my day. She was letting me know that she understood me not being in class and so forth, then in her last email she asked if there was anything she could do. Bring me food, tea, take me to Shopper’s Drug Mart if I needed to get drugs etc! She is one of my favourite teachers and that just boosted her up a few hundred points more in my books! She said that it must suck to be at school and feel crappy and not be home with family. I feel touched that she would volunteer herself, and her vehicle in the crappy weather, to help me out! So that, along with MM’s text, has pretty much turned me into an emotional pile of tears.
*sigh* It’s nice to know that I have people around me who care so much about my well being. I just might end up taking a few minutes and indulging an a little cry-fest so I can get all the emotional stuff out.
Now all I can do is wait till MM gets home from work so I can call her and then wait for Kai to get home so I can chat with him, and I know he will only make my day better!
Later days!
Money money money…
27 Jan 2009 Leave a Comment
I wish I had a whole truckload of it because everything seems to be piling up. After my OSAP went through I still owe my school a crapload of money for my tuition this semester. Besides that I have an overdue payment for my cell bill, I need to buy textbooks, and I’m going to need to buy groceries at some point as well. Ugh. I wish I could win the lottery and then I wouldn’t have to worry about all this.
And on top of that I still have to worry about my medical stuff because I still have no clue as to what is wrong with me. Someone just kill me and put me out of my misery. This is just too much drama for me to deal with. I don’t know how I’m going to handle the next few, sure to be stressful, weeks ahead of me. I kind of don’t even want to think about it. Stupid everything happening all at once!
Ok thats all I got for now, now I have to go and try to start, and maybe finish, my story that was due yesterday that I didn’t get done cause I had Camera this weekend and because I was absolutely useless from being sick.
Later days!
Doctors and blood
26 Jan 2009 2 Comments
in Frustrations, Kai, Lazy, New and Improved, countdowns, doctors, sleeep
Today was my doctors appointment, as you all know by now, and it went.. ok I guess. I came in prepared with my list of symptoms and possible ideas on what could be wrong with me. He took my list seriously and sat there and talked with me about everything on it, asking me how long its been going on, how severe, when it typically happens, and exactly what goes on when it happens. I answered all the questions and also told him about the history of colon/intestinal cancer in DD’s side of the family, that my sister has been diagnosed with depression and, I believe, bi=polar and manic depressive (he was asking me if I was depressed) and I also told him that Camera has ADHD and my sister was just diagnosed with ADD, so I most likely have it as well (I’m pretty sure I have ADD but have never been officially diagnosed). So after I told him about that he did the normal doctor things, checked my breathing, my ears, my throat and then asked me the normal questions: Do you drink? No. Do you do drugs? No. Do you smoke? Yes. How much? Less than half a pack a day. How long? Since grade 6? So 5-6 years. Then he filled out a sheet and told me to get some blood work done and make another appointment for next week. So I tried to get my blood taken at the school, but because my veins are so tiny the nurse couldn’t get any blood, so she sent me to the lab to get it taken. The lab is only about a 5-10 minute walk from res so I texted Missy and asked if she would come with, she said yes. But before I left I had to get my jacket and call my Gyno’s office to tell them to fax my ultrasound shit over. The receptionist said she would fax it over right away and I hung up, grabbed my jacket and left to go walk with Missy to the lab.
We had a fun walk there and then I filled out a form and we waited for a little over 5 minutes before I was called back. The lady who took my blood was very nice and she got a vein first try! I was surprised to say the least. About halfway through the process I could hear this lady outside the room getting more and more agitated and pissed off. She was complaining to the person at the front desk saying that she didn’t know she couldn’t eat or drink past 7. She was bitching and complaining a lot. I gave her a dirty look as we left, it says on your form lady! Sheesh, she was waving her form around saying “I didn’t know it said that!” Well, duh! READ THE SHEET! Fuck, people like that definitely have a tendency to piss me off.
Missy and me walked back towards the school and I told her we were making a pit stop at Burger King because I was STARVING! We ate lunch at BK and then walked back to school and went our separate ways. I came back to my room where I played the new game Camera bought me… and became addicted to it. I was yelling at my DS when I died, how pathetic is that? LOL.
Now I’m just waiting for Kai to get home and tell me about his day at work, and listening to Shorty’s music. 
Later days all!
P.S. I have another doctors appointment set up for next Monday, again at 1240, so hopefully I will have some sort of results from this latest blood work. Cross you fingers for me!
Have you ever felt like…
25 Jan 2009 1 Comment
in Boredom, Frustrations, Kai, New and Improved, Stupidity, countdowns, doctors, over life, ow pain, panic, sick, sleeep
no one is listening and you’re all alone? That is me this weekend. I mean I did have my brother here and I do have Shorty, but for some reason I have been feeling in the dumps. Besides feeling sick and achy and in pain, I feel like something is missing.
I know I sound like a bitch sometimes when I talk to Kai because I get emotional and tell him that I feel like he’s never there, but I don’t mean it. Well I do kind of because I do feel like he’s gone a lot, but I don’t mean to make him feel bad about it. I think I’m just having separation issues and I’ve been feeling alone a lot. I mean this weekend he was gone a lot, I understood in my brain that he was away for important things, but my heart feels like he’s ditching me. I can’t seem to get them on the same path of thought. I don’t like making Kai feel bad just because I’m having emotional issues.
Kai got a supervisor position at work and he starts on Monday, so yesterday he went out to get new clothes and stuff for this new position, and I understand why he was gone yesterday, but I still feel like I was ditched. And he said he would be around today, but I was gone for a bit this morning and then he was gone for a long time and I felt really shitty. I wish I didn’t feel like this and I wish I wasn’t so emotional because it sucks.
Man, my last bunch of posts have been very whiny and pathetic. I am kinda disgusted with myself. I hate being this stupid sappy person, it’s completely not me. I feel retarded and stupid and ugh.
My brain is completely foggy and is not working right now. So I’m gonna finish talking to Kai on the phone and then I’m off to bed. I’m definitely not going to class tomorrow because of how crappy I feel, and then I have my doctors appointment at 1240, so everyone cross your fingers for me and hope everything goes well!
Later days!
