Freaking out mode
24 Nov 2008 Leave a Comment
in doctors, over life, ow pain, sick, sleeep
This has to stop now. I can’t deal with being sick anymore. I can’t deal with eating all the time, or sleeping all the time, or having to pee like every 10 minutes. I can’t deal with side pains. Or anything else. Gods above, I just want to be healthy! Is that really too much to ask for?
Seriously?
I’ve set up another doctor’s appointment for tomorrow so I can go back and see if anything hinkey came up in my blood tests. And I also have to let the doctor know about my constant need for food and constant bathroom breaks over the past week. Maybe he’ll know what to do. Right now everyone I know keeps telling me that it sounds like I could be pregnant.
I don’t want to think about it.
I really don’t.
It’s not like I don’t have enough on my mind right now with exams coming up in 2 weeks and all the projects due within the next 3 weeks. But if I found out I was prego I would probably have a minor breakdown.
Yesterday I was super cranky and emotional and in pain and just in general pissed off. And I, unfortunately, took it out on Kai… poor guy. I love you dearly! But I will say that I gave him fair warning, so its not all my fault. I was so messed up yesterday that some little comment he made almost made me burst into tears. WTF IS UP WITH THAT !? Gods. For those of you that don’t know, I hate, and I mean hate, being emotional. So me being to the point of tears over a small comment is just plain stupid and ridiculous.
So I have my doctors appointment tomorrow and then my ultrasounds on Friday. I hope I’m not prego *crosses fingers*
On a happier note, me and Kai hit our 10 month anniversary 
In any of my other relationships I would have had this mapped out and planned, but this just hit me square in the face on Thursday when I was like “oh Sunday is the 23rd. that will make it *counts on fingers* 10 months for me an Kai. 10 months?! where did the time go?” lolx.
Ok well I’m off to eat… again. It’s not like I didn’t eat an hour ago or anything. And it’s not like I had a BIG bowl of chili or anything. Nooooooo. Ugh
Later days!
